Don’t We Have It All?

 

I am currently listening to a remix of ‘Lost Frequencies‘ (click on the song name for 2 and a half minutes of ear-gasm) and became immersed in recollections and ideas that have been on my mind recently as well as a sudden spark of thoughts so I hastily opened my blog and here I am typing away. I hope my conglomerated flow of ideas aren’t too confusing to understand.

Listening to this song struck a chord for me; I don’t know if it was the upbeat bass that always gets me pumped up, or the simple lyrics leaving room for interpretation. Either way, I was suddenly taken on a journey starting from my childhood and ending up to present day. I was on a magic carpet ride of notes and tunes lulling me from my memories of the past to present day me.

‘I can fly high, I can go low’ transported me to when I was 6 years old. Fingers sticky from lemonade icy poles and wearing brightly coloured scrunchies, I dreamt of what I wanted to be when I was older. How far adolescence was, let alone adulthood. I wanted to be a dancer, a teacher, a member of Hi-5…I wanted to be tall and thin like Barbie and I wanted to live in a cottage like Miss Honey from ‘Matilda’. Back then, I thought that anything was possible. I was a clean canvas and if I wanted to fly to the moon I would be able to because being a ‘grown up’ seemed so far away.

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‘Decisions as i go’ took me back to when I was in high school; awkward, shy 15 years old me with braces and raging pimples. This was a time where I was really confused with who I was (cliched as hell I KNOW) and what I wanted. I was floating through my friend group, feeling as though I was ‘in’ yet not quite fitting in properly. I was immature and all I wanted was to be cool and popular, concealing my love of books with mindless gossip and rebellious antics during class. I would replace studying to go on Facebook and MSN so that I could have the most hearts next to my name from my friends. If I could go back in time, I would tell myself that all these irrational decisions I made, from making a mean remark or having a strong disregard for a subject would only keep me happy temporarily. I wished I didn’t make decisions based on popularity or trends and actually thought about what I really enjoyed.

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And finally, ‘tomorrow I don’t know’ carried me back to 20 year old me. For months, years really I wasn’t quite sure exactly of what I wanted to do once I left high school. I got into uni with a journalism degree, fulfilling my dream of studying communications. However, whenever I was asked what career I wanted to take I would answer that the opportunities are endless in media and communications. Very recently however, I realised that very soon, I would be graduating… and if I didn’t act now I would still be in a daze of what to do and where to go. This lyric is both a reminder to me to start acting now as well as the beauty of life. Who knows what our future will hold, we can’t control the future but we can definitely shape our fate. Let’s become a person who our younger selves would be proud of, that we accomplished something and that all the wishes, dreams and mistakes we made end up as something brilliant.

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🙂 Will write more xxx

 

 

 

Author: stylesteph

21 year old Sydney student (born and bred) studying a Bachelor's of Journalism at UTS. My blog is a little hub of all things fashion, beauty and lifestyle related as well as a few shares of my favourite things.

4 thoughts

  1. This was a lovely read, I really enjoyed how your thoughts tumbled out on to the page! I have no idea what I want to do when I ‘grow up’, but if I’m following the aspirations of my childhood self then something between a fairy and a mermaid should do…
    Would love it if you checked out my blog!!
    Buttercup Baby

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